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29.08.2005, 13:27
Hello.
Please, help or assist me. Below I result or bring data on, the status, and a problem.
To me of 19 full years. Was born in family of students. Two at a birth, a prematurity 1 items, a hypoxia, an asphyxia legk. Item, an encephalopathy the Father the engineer. On character benevolent, quiet, executive, soft, appeasable. Mother the teacher. On character timid, kind, soft. The kindergarten did not visit or attend, was brought up with the brother of the house, mum did not work while we have not gone or do not send to school. Did not like to walk, play with other children (except for the brother). To school has gone from 7 years. Studied well, but school did not like. The exact sciences and history liked. To read did not like. At school got tired, houses lessons did or made longly with frequent breaks. In mugs or circles was not engaged. Was unsociable, shy, timid, hypochondriac, morbid. Passed or missed much, but always caught up. Has left school with a silver medal. Has entered the university.
From the childhood was hypochondriac, disturbing or alarming, unsociable, timid, conscientious. In an elementary school could not look at some children, thought, that if I shall look or see, there will be something unpleasant, a day nursery the view casually encountered them, tried otmargatsja, as though "to push away" eyes that has seen. There were other "rituals". In high school about 6 classes there was such strangeness:
I had an inclination with sensation of a strain to touch with arms or hand and nokami various subjects, parts of a floor, on some times after that the strain decreased. In general always I feel an internal strain, not the opportunity will relax, easy to have a rest. Visiting of employment or occupations svjazanno at me with a strong strain both internal, and muscular. In general, except for as in school, and then in university, I where I do not leave if I leave only with parents. If I should appear outside of the house to one palms at me sweat, heart often fights, in a mouth dries up, to a throat drives komok, the head is turned. The same reaction appears, if I get under the general or common attention or I am in small groups or simply I meet friends. I avoid similar situations. I do not have friends (yes I and do not want, with someone gets acquainted). Concerning to other people I am afraid to offend, complicate someone, at dialogue I embarrass, my voice varies, becomes silent and illegible. The slightest criticism konfuzit me, I feel to myself guilty, sometimes even words of criticism ring at me in ears still longly.
I very irresolute, I am am excruciated constantly with the doubts arising in occasion of the most insignificant things (for example, sometimes I start to doubt, whether really I like any song or I have forced itself to grow fond of it or her).
I very hypochondriac, even not appreciable trifle can cause in me a chain of unpleasant associations, and impressionable, read through and whether the withdrawn unpleasant episode causes in me pavor, that same can, happens with me or my relatives.
Often I am in a status of alarm and a presentiment something not pleasant.
I sleep badly. Even the long dream does not give me feeling otdohuvshesti. Often it is removed or is taken off;dream nightmares. I wake up with feeling of alarm a presentiment prijatnostej.
I am not active, quickly I get tired, I do not feel in myself energy, vital forces.
BP practically always povyshenno (160/90) if I do not accept a medicine, pulse 90.
There are headaches in occipital area.
Mostly I am in the suppressed mood, I am betraid to every possible reflections. Something is difficult to amuse or please me.
In general, I the person who has been not adapted by a life and struggle for existence. I give in to difficulties, washing usual reaction to them this flight. I am am frightened even only with possible or probable troubles.
Entering in institute - the beginning of an adult life became for me impact, I have appeared is not adapted for her. My status has worsened. On employment or occupations I am hammered on last series, there is in a constant strain, even at lectures, and laboratory it simply nightmare. Eventually, on I 3-eat a course, I could not transfer or carry it or this began to pass or miss of employment or occupation. It was necessary to take the academic holiday. But on September, 1st he comes to an end, it is necessary to come back to study, besides in other group.
Please, tell that with me (if it is possible the diagnosis) and advise, as to me to be.
Thankful in advance.
Please, help or assist me. Below I result or bring data on, the status, and a problem.
To me of 19 full years. Was born in family of students. Two at a birth, a prematurity 1 items, a hypoxia, an asphyxia legk. Item, an encephalopathy the Father the engineer. On character benevolent, quiet, executive, soft, appeasable. Mother the teacher. On character timid, kind, soft. The kindergarten did not visit or attend, was brought up with the brother of the house, mum did not work while we have not gone or do not send to school. Did not like to walk, play with other children (except for the brother). To school has gone from 7 years. Studied well, but school did not like. The exact sciences and history liked. To read did not like. At school got tired, houses lessons did or made longly with frequent breaks. In mugs or circles was not engaged. Was unsociable, shy, timid, hypochondriac, morbid. Passed or missed much, but always caught up. Has left school with a silver medal. Has entered the university.
From the childhood was hypochondriac, disturbing or alarming, unsociable, timid, conscientious. In an elementary school could not look at some children, thought, that if I shall look or see, there will be something unpleasant, a day nursery the view casually encountered them, tried otmargatsja, as though "to push away" eyes that has seen. There were other "rituals". In high school about 6 classes there was such strangeness:
I had an inclination with sensation of a strain to touch with arms or hand and nokami various subjects, parts of a floor, on some times after that the strain decreased. In general always I feel an internal strain, not the opportunity will relax, easy to have a rest. Visiting of employment or occupations svjazanno at me with a strong strain both internal, and muscular. In general, except for as in school, and then in university, I where I do not leave if I leave only with parents. If I should appear outside of the house to one palms at me sweat, heart often fights, in a mouth dries up, to a throat drives komok, the head is turned. The same reaction appears, if I get under the general or common attention or I am in small groups or simply I meet friends. I avoid similar situations. I do not have friends (yes I and do not want, with someone gets acquainted). Concerning to other people I am afraid to offend, complicate someone, at dialogue I embarrass, my voice varies, becomes silent and illegible. The slightest criticism konfuzit me, I feel to myself guilty, sometimes even words of criticism ring at me in ears still longly.
I very irresolute, I am am excruciated constantly with the doubts arising in occasion of the most insignificant things (for example, sometimes I start to doubt, whether really I like any song or I have forced itself to grow fond of it or her).
I very hypochondriac, even not appreciable trifle can cause in me a chain of unpleasant associations, and impressionable, read through and whether the withdrawn unpleasant episode causes in me pavor, that same can, happens with me or my relatives.
Often I am in a status of alarm and a presentiment something not pleasant.
I sleep badly. Even the long dream does not give me feeling otdohuvshesti. Often it is removed or is taken off;dream nightmares. I wake up with feeling of alarm a presentiment prijatnostej.
I am not active, quickly I get tired, I do not feel in myself energy, vital forces.
BP practically always povyshenno (160/90) if I do not accept a medicine, pulse 90.
There are headaches in occipital area.
Mostly I am in the suppressed mood, I am betraid to every possible reflections. Something is difficult to amuse or please me.
In general, I the person who has been not adapted by a life and struggle for existence. I give in to difficulties, washing usual reaction to them this flight. I am am frightened even only with possible or probable troubles.
Entering in institute - the beginning of an adult life became for me impact, I have appeared is not adapted for her. My status has worsened. On employment or occupations I am hammered on last series, there is in a constant strain, even at lectures, and laboratory it simply nightmare. Eventually, on I 3-eat a course, I could not transfer or carry it or this began to pass or miss of employment or occupation. It was necessary to take the academic holiday. But on September, 1st he comes to an end, it is necessary to come back to study, besides in other group.
Please, tell that with me (if it is possible the diagnosis) and advise, as to me to be.
Thankful in advance.