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12.10.2004, 10:10
It is my first present or true love.
I like it or him.
I liked it or him one and a half year ago when all it has begun.
I shall like it or him, because I do not see anybody another and I can not present myself with another.
... He has betraid me... Half a year back we have left under its or his initiative. The reason?
- All year while we were together, he pereodicheski was with another. She - its or his was or former. They were together almost 3 years. Once she has bothered him and here we get acquainted. To him 25, me - 18. He became my to the first the man. I tonula in love, I believed him, I "knew" - he mine and only mine... But I was mistaken. He and could not leave her. I have learned or have found out first time about her after 8 months of our attitudes or relations. Then he has admitted: " I wish to admit to you. I pereodicheski was with another. We saw sometimes and slept or burn. So it has awfully turned out... I know, I the ugly creature, but only you are necessary to me. Forgive or excuse... I like you and I wish to be only with you... " It was for me impact. Impact in the heart, put or rendered from a back. To me to a head could not come, that he is capable of it... But I liked... And consequently has forgiven or excused...
Like all it was forgot, but in 3 months he has told or said, that it is better to us to leave. He ALL With her videtsja also cannot without it or her. Spoke, likes me, and to her pulls. With her he thinks of me and on the contrary. Spoke, that is broken off or lacerated and cannot so more. Has solved, that it is better to him pobyt to one. As he said, she to him more as the sister and with her it or he is connected or bound with 3 years. More shortly, he could not understand itself(himself).
Then I thought, that the life for me is terminated or over. How the person whom I so liked could so it is low with me to act or arrive? He me deceived year... Though has told or said, that everything, that he spoke me about the feelings - in all sincerity and the truth. To me was so painfully, so badly... But I continued to live.
Very soon I have met the guy. He was full contrast was or former besides I TRUSTED him! Because he has very much grown fond of me... And I they be is not present. With it or him it was very comfortable... In general all at us was healthy, while... Was or Former has appeared. Month to him was enough to understand itself. He wished to be with me. We have started to see and me again to it or him;them has pulled...
Has passed or Has taken place half a year since then - now we together. He has changed. He speaks - if not that parting, he would not understand, how strongly likes me. He now does not depart from me on a step. Has much made to return me. Now we always vmeste-go to it or him;them home (I am already a little familiar with its or his parents and relatives), had a rest all the summer long together on the sea, I am familiar with its or his many friends.
He constantly speaks, that likes, that always, even in students dreamed of such girl - with such appearance, character and sense of humour.
2 days ago, when we were at its or his parents (he lived in settlement, and now in city), we have come across the girl (he has greeted her. She with it or him - is not present) and he has told or said, what is it she is... The Only thing, he cannot suffer or bear, when I lift a subject of its or his change. Speaks, to him it very painfully and difficultly to recollect, that to him it was very bad then.
BUT! There is one problem - I cannot believe him any more... I do not trust him more... I would not tell or say, that he me is direct so deceived, when was with her, no. To simply me and in a head did not come to ask: " you have somebody? ", and he, clearly, also did not speak. That is the direct text he did not deceive me. He at all from those who deceives.
Now I believe, that he likes me, that he only with me, but I all time think, that he is capable to change to me. To me very painfully to recollect and represent, that he was with another... As soon as I shall think of it or this, the mood there and then becomes reserved and spoils. And more began to notice, that very much it or him I am jealous... Almost on trifles - not so will look or see at the girl, something will approach or suit will simply tell or say - at me jealousy awful! I do not speak him about it or this. Even when he tells something, and one of its or his was or former there appears, I am simple I can not listen further - at once I represent them and to me it is very bad...
How with it or this to consult? How to learn to trust him? How to cease to be jealous it or him (in fact he does not give me occasions)?.. Help or assist me, and that I absolutely shall become limp from these problems...
I like it or him.
I liked it or him one and a half year ago when all it has begun.
I shall like it or him, because I do not see anybody another and I can not present myself with another.
... He has betraid me... Half a year back we have left under its or his initiative. The reason?
- All year while we were together, he pereodicheski was with another. She - its or his was or former. They were together almost 3 years. Once she has bothered him and here we get acquainted. To him 25, me - 18. He became my to the first the man. I tonula in love, I believed him, I "knew" - he mine and only mine... But I was mistaken. He and could not leave her. I have learned or have found out first time about her after 8 months of our attitudes or relations. Then he has admitted: " I wish to admit to you. I pereodicheski was with another. We saw sometimes and slept or burn. So it has awfully turned out... I know, I the ugly creature, but only you are necessary to me. Forgive or excuse... I like you and I wish to be only with you... " It was for me impact. Impact in the heart, put or rendered from a back. To me to a head could not come, that he is capable of it... But I liked... And consequently has forgiven or excused...
Like all it was forgot, but in 3 months he has told or said, that it is better to us to leave. He ALL With her videtsja also cannot without it or her. Spoke, likes me, and to her pulls. With her he thinks of me and on the contrary. Spoke, that is broken off or lacerated and cannot so more. Has solved, that it is better to him pobyt to one. As he said, she to him more as the sister and with her it or he is connected or bound with 3 years. More shortly, he could not understand itself(himself).
Then I thought, that the life for me is terminated or over. How the person whom I so liked could so it is low with me to act or arrive? He me deceived year... Though has told or said, that everything, that he spoke me about the feelings - in all sincerity and the truth. To me was so painfully, so badly... But I continued to live.
Very soon I have met the guy. He was full contrast was or former besides I TRUSTED him! Because he has very much grown fond of me... And I they be is not present. With it or him it was very comfortable... In general all at us was healthy, while... Was or Former has appeared. Month to him was enough to understand itself. He wished to be with me. We have started to see and me again to it or him;them has pulled...
Has passed or Has taken place half a year since then - now we together. He has changed. He speaks - if not that parting, he would not understand, how strongly likes me. He now does not depart from me on a step. Has much made to return me. Now we always vmeste-go to it or him;them home (I am already a little familiar with its or his parents and relatives), had a rest all the summer long together on the sea, I am familiar with its or his many friends.
He constantly speaks, that likes, that always, even in students dreamed of such girl - with such appearance, character and sense of humour.
2 days ago, when we were at its or his parents (he lived in settlement, and now in city), we have come across the girl (he has greeted her. She with it or him - is not present) and he has told or said, what is it she is... The Only thing, he cannot suffer or bear, when I lift a subject of its or his change. Speaks, to him it very painfully and difficultly to recollect, that to him it was very bad then.
BUT! There is one problem - I cannot believe him any more... I do not trust him more... I would not tell or say, that he me is direct so deceived, when was with her, no. To simply me and in a head did not come to ask: " you have somebody? ", and he, clearly, also did not speak. That is the direct text he did not deceive me. He at all from those who deceives.
Now I believe, that he likes me, that he only with me, but I all time think, that he is capable to change to me. To me very painfully to recollect and represent, that he was with another... As soon as I shall think of it or this, the mood there and then becomes reserved and spoils. And more began to notice, that very much it or him I am jealous... Almost on trifles - not so will look or see at the girl, something will approach or suit will simply tell or say - at me jealousy awful! I do not speak him about it or this. Even when he tells something, and one of its or his was or former there appears, I am simple I can not listen further - at once I represent them and to me it is very bad...
How with it or this to consult? How to learn to trust him? How to cease to be jealous it or him (in fact he does not give me occasions)?.. Help or assist me, and that I absolutely shall become limp from these problems...