help mi
15.08.2004, 03:45
The doctor, prompt how to act or arrive. To me almost 16, but I already 100 % the loony. At me some years a problem with a dream (more likely psychological), I terribly do not get enough sleep, I very emotional, iz-for each songs can become sumasshedshe-cheerful, can roar a floor of hour. I very vulnerable - when to me speak mucks I swallow tongue and I cost or stand with tears on eyes. I do not believe, that the world so is rigid or severe. You do not think, that I the derelict, I at school with many am friends, I study normally, everyone like me. And so, further: at me sharp differences of mood, I cannot understand, that I want, in the spring at me was wild depra and I began to cut arms or hand up to a blood - me it consoled pochemu-that... Since then happens I cut, when it is bad. I terrible idealistka, fanatka, ready to die for the sake of the idol - roar almost every evening - at school I get tired diko - we up to 6. Dances, singing both td and tp. At me a heap of complexes, but almost everyone consider or count me BEAUTIFUL. I can easy read at a lesson, and then suddenly I start to redden, rattle and I start to roar. At me a depression almost every Friday. Stress every day. + at me still everything, that happens in awkward age - you know. vobshchem, a full bouquet of psychosises. I once a month think of suicide, but more likely it not seryozno, I simply wish to draw attention of parents. They speak - you nervous, but do or make nothing. In the mornings we pass Gannushkina and, you will not believe, me pulls there as a magnet. In these quiet greenish walls where nobody will offend where it is not necessary to struggle constantly where it is quiet. I do not know, that to me to do or make..... It I all is fair napisla, sincerely. I do not speak, that at me a problem - is possible or probable, I have thought up them, but they are also to me badly - a life not in pleasure and it that at us is a lot of money, I worked as model earlier, I study well (except for algebra =) the guy at me remarkable both td and tp. What to do or make?