Margo
08.08.2004, 23:40
Really all this occurs or happens to me?
Why all this occurs or happens to me?
And in general - that occurs or happens?
My God! For what???
I do not have more forces to suffer or bear such attitude or relation to, but also there are no forces to get rid of this person!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What to me to do or make? Than, as well as for what to live??????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Why so occurs or happens? I at times fiercely hate it or him, basically I feel a deaf or an indistinct boring. Sometimes there is a desire it or him to kill, let not the arms or hand but that he has died. And at all thus I CAN not tell or say to him "leave"!
It is any vicious circle ..
Yes! Well, I the next time take myself in arms or hand and I try to pretend, that nothing happens. And can be and actually nothing occurs or happens, washing the irrepressible imagination adjoining on a paranoia, my overestimated demands and the loosened nerves could give effect of tragedy on empty (almost) a place. Almost - at least because the whole month to sleep together with me in one bed, having turned the face to a wall is cannot be normal attitudes or relations.
All of us this time it is not talked almost! It as?
Whether the unique night which I have spent in other room can the muzhik up to such degree dokanat? And for objective enough reasons. Or what I vse-taki have placed furniture in a room - to the (after long dispute and abuse)?
Whether SUCH LOVE how was at it or him to me, all for any some or a little bit months can completely sink? It is impossible to tell or say, by the way, that I did not reciprocate ..
Whether there are actually all these malefices, decays, privoroty, tops???? How to be protected, if yes? This all handwork of its or his former wife Can?
Problem in me? I not so do or make something and I do not notice, what slowly, but have correctly reduced on there is no" all good, what was between us? How it to learn, understand or find out, understand? What exactly?
For 2 years which we together I have lost almost all! I mean personally myself, it in any way does not concern or touch relatives and associates. I have lost health, hair on a head (almost), beauty (that I was very much even nedurna associates recognized all), feelings of pleasure and happiness, good mood, natural cheerful adventurousness, boldness, pride, confidence of. Instead of all it or this I have got huge, mad and selfless love of this person. But now there is no also it or her . Why? What's happened with us????
As I wish to return all!!!!! Anything superfluous it is not necessary to me, but I wish to return the !!! That at me as though have selected, have stolen. Who? For what? By what right? I do not know .
I even have called in this most notorious the Temple of destiny , but there exorbitant prices (I simply do not have such money), any guarantees, and their adherents speak with the Caucasian accent or stress .. Directs at ideas ..
Often ideas that would not be desirable began to appear, simply it is not necessary to live forces ., but also here paradox - I am afraid of mors above all!!!! Can go mad, start to drink, narcotics? On what shishi is time and that will be with the son and mum are two. Or more likely on the contrary
And I can and there is a madwoman? And my phobia to go to the underground (especially costing or standing)? And these periodic sensations of departuring consciousness, causeless pavors, for example, to fall????
And here it is still interesting: normally to be engaged in self-satisfaction in bathing, having near by the healthy normal muzhik? Whether it is insulting know!
There is a question, and whether there is on light a force, capable to me to help or assist?
The psychiatrist (it at the salary of 250 dollars)?
Church? Unless there were gde-that fathers not corrupted, fair, believing??? Yes I and not kreshchennaja - to mine
Can find someone? Whom??? And how it "to find"??? It with all that load which forces voloku on themselves (about what it is told or said above) - is not present, and is terrible "to get" again if I even shall rise kogda-nibud after that all - though is believed, actually hardly ..
And me in fact already 33, strelochki spin forward, instead of back. And as it would be desirable to give birth still to a couple of children, especially the girl necessarily
Vobshchem here! Such here the chicken-feed has turned out. An essay. Last premortal cry or more likely rhonchus .
Melancholy, bezishodnost and powerlessness have reached such level that I am going to now to thrust this "cry" in an Internet and to tell or say all of you:
CHILDREN or GUYS THE HELP!!!!!
(Who can and than can - ourselves people local)
Smilies in the necessary places place - to smile I has forgot and thanks all those who has allowed itself work to read up up to the extremity or end.
For the clear reason I subscribe an assumed name. For the same reason I open to myself a new (secret) mail box on which with hope I shall wait the correspondence.
So, I am Margarita!
Volands, Masters, Hippopotamuses, Gellas well though somebody!!! Where you????
HELPMARGO@mail. ru
Why all this occurs or happens to me?
And in general - that occurs or happens?
My God! For what???
I do not have more forces to suffer or bear such attitude or relation to, but also there are no forces to get rid of this person!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What to me to do or make? Than, as well as for what to live??????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Why so occurs or happens? I at times fiercely hate it or him, basically I feel a deaf or an indistinct boring. Sometimes there is a desire it or him to kill, let not the arms or hand but that he has died. And at all thus I CAN not tell or say to him "leave"!
It is any vicious circle ..
Yes! Well, I the next time take myself in arms or hand and I try to pretend, that nothing happens. And can be and actually nothing occurs or happens, washing the irrepressible imagination adjoining on a paranoia, my overestimated demands and the loosened nerves could give effect of tragedy on empty (almost) a place. Almost - at least because the whole month to sleep together with me in one bed, having turned the face to a wall is cannot be normal attitudes or relations.
All of us this time it is not talked almost! It as?
Whether the unique night which I have spent in other room can the muzhik up to such degree dokanat? And for objective enough reasons. Or what I vse-taki have placed furniture in a room - to the (after long dispute and abuse)?
Whether SUCH LOVE how was at it or him to me, all for any some or a little bit months can completely sink? It is impossible to tell or say, by the way, that I did not reciprocate ..
Whether there are actually all these malefices, decays, privoroty, tops???? How to be protected, if yes? This all handwork of its or his former wife Can?
Problem in me? I not so do or make something and I do not notice, what slowly, but have correctly reduced on there is no" all good, what was between us? How it to learn, understand or find out, understand? What exactly?
For 2 years which we together I have lost almost all! I mean personally myself, it in any way does not concern or touch relatives and associates. I have lost health, hair on a head (almost), beauty (that I was very much even nedurna associates recognized all), feelings of pleasure and happiness, good mood, natural cheerful adventurousness, boldness, pride, confidence of. Instead of all it or this I have got huge, mad and selfless love of this person. But now there is no also it or her . Why? What's happened with us????
As I wish to return all!!!!! Anything superfluous it is not necessary to me, but I wish to return the !!! That at me as though have selected, have stolen. Who? For what? By what right? I do not know .
I even have called in this most notorious the Temple of destiny , but there exorbitant prices (I simply do not have such money), any guarantees, and their adherents speak with the Caucasian accent or stress .. Directs at ideas ..
Often ideas that would not be desirable began to appear, simply it is not necessary to live forces ., but also here paradox - I am afraid of mors above all!!!! Can go mad, start to drink, narcotics? On what shishi is time and that will be with the son and mum are two. Or more likely on the contrary
And I can and there is a madwoman? And my phobia to go to the underground (especially costing or standing)? And these periodic sensations of departuring consciousness, causeless pavors, for example, to fall????
And here it is still interesting: normally to be engaged in self-satisfaction in bathing, having near by the healthy normal muzhik? Whether it is insulting know!
There is a question, and whether there is on light a force, capable to me to help or assist?
The psychiatrist (it at the salary of 250 dollars)?
Church? Unless there were gde-that fathers not corrupted, fair, believing??? Yes I and not kreshchennaja - to mine
Can find someone? Whom??? And how it "to find"??? It with all that load which forces voloku on themselves (about what it is told or said above) - is not present, and is terrible "to get" again if I even shall rise kogda-nibud after that all - though is believed, actually hardly ..
And me in fact already 33, strelochki spin forward, instead of back. And as it would be desirable to give birth still to a couple of children, especially the girl necessarily
Vobshchem here! Such here the chicken-feed has turned out. An essay. Last premortal cry or more likely rhonchus .
Melancholy, bezishodnost and powerlessness have reached such level that I am going to now to thrust this "cry" in an Internet and to tell or say all of you:
CHILDREN or GUYS THE HELP!!!!!
(Who can and than can - ourselves people local)
Smilies in the necessary places place - to smile I has forgot and thanks all those who has allowed itself work to read up up to the extremity or end.
For the clear reason I subscribe an assumed name. For the same reason I open to myself a new (secret) mail box on which with hope I shall wait the correspondence.
So, I am Margarita!
Volands, Masters, Hippopotamuses, Gellas well though somebody!!! Where you????
HELPMARGO@mail. ru