Maria
27.07.2004, 18:27
Hello. Vam Zhemchugova Maria writes. To me 21 year.
Allow, I shall tell to you about myself. It happens in the summer of 1998. (as a thunder among
Clear palate). We had a rest in village. There was a hot sunny day, and we as always
Have gone or Send to bathe. I have dived and + ++ +.. Everything, all has failed all my life all
My plans everything, everything, all in one only an instant.
I had the strongest fracture 4, 5, 6, 7 vertebra or vertebrae with damage of a spinal cord. And
This horror of Hospital, operation one for another has then begun. Some times mine
The life was on the verge of a life and mors (strong decubituses, a heat,
Low pressure + ++) If with me was not my liked mummy, which days
And nights was series with me, looked after me, treated, supported or maintained, me already
For a long time would not be in alive. Now I move by means of invalid's
Carriages. Unfortunately, despite of all our diligence and efforts of a leg or foot remain without
Movements. My problem consists that now I do not feel
Any vital energy, she as though gradually follows from me. Firstly
My aspiration, belief, desire to be restored were very great, and now + to Me
It became terrible for the future. One doubts what that. I do not understand, that
Occurs or Happens. I would not like anything. Simply one white ceiling. Often visit or attend
Ideas on suicide. Has ceased to look at itself in a mirror. There are hysterics.
Tears. As with it or this to struggle and what to do or make further - I do not know. How to adjust or set up itself on
Positive ideas on charging or charge. I was lost in this life. At me such sensation,
That I kochus downwards, that float absolutely in other direction.
In our family not all is smooth. At us very rasping and malicious father, he it is constant
Shouts, swears, with the sister, with the brother with mum, eternally clings to
All. The daddy at all does not help or assist mum, her to have everything, all to do or make most.
Mum does not work from the moment of a trauma. All its or her girlfriends samolikvidirovalis. No
Any encouragement neither from native, nor from the husband, in which
She so requires.
To me very hardly to look at it or her. From the moment of a trauma its or her health very much
Has reeled. She should do or make all most: to sit down me on a carriage, to lay down on
The bed to help or assist to overturn +
Last time it or she is hurted very much with legs or foots. Recently in it or her have found out a hernia (inguinal)
I very much experience for it or her, I worry for its or her health. It is very terrible to me to think about
Volume that will be further with her. Mum often has nervous failures. When she
Starts to cry, and to speak, as she is tired from all it or this at me heart simply
On pieces it is broken off or is lacerated. I so want, that first of all was happy and
She is free. Each new day is similar on previous. Very much often I see it or her
zaplakannye, tired, empty eyes though she carefully tries to hide them that
To not upset us. In them is not present, as before any vital force, energy,
Sparks. She began to drink, certainly, not often, but + " You in all are guilty! ": such
I very much often hear a phrase from the brother and the sister. So to live in such situation
To become all it is more complex or difficult, but to live I very much I want, I wish to rise on legs or foots, to marry,
narozhat children, and the most important I want that my mummy was free and
It is happy. I know and I understand that all this iz-for me, but as well as than to help or assist her I not
I know. Dear, the psychologist, what to me to do or make and how itself messages? Prompt
Please! Often I feel low in all body, to force itself to be engaged
To become all it is more difficult. Even when I find in myself forces and I start to do or make
Charging or Charge, I have such sensation, that I do or make not that and not so. To me
Your psychological help is very necessary!!! Prompt, PLEASE, as to me
To get rid of this laziness oppressing me and passivity. How to find confidence in
The forces and to believe in the convalescence! How to learn to not pay attention on
The negative surrounding me to get rid of bad ideas and to be adjusted or be set up only on
Restoration?
I shall look forward to hearing from you or to your reply very much.
Help or Assist me, please!
In advance to you it is very grateful!
Yours faithfully Zhemchugova Maria.
My electron address: milery@mail. ru
Allow, I shall tell to you about myself. It happens in the summer of 1998. (as a thunder among
Clear palate). We had a rest in village. There was a hot sunny day, and we as always
Have gone or Send to bathe. I have dived and + ++ +.. Everything, all has failed all my life all
My plans everything, everything, all in one only an instant.
I had the strongest fracture 4, 5, 6, 7 vertebra or vertebrae with damage of a spinal cord. And
This horror of Hospital, operation one for another has then begun. Some times mine
The life was on the verge of a life and mors (strong decubituses, a heat,
Low pressure + ++) If with me was not my liked mummy, which days
And nights was series with me, looked after me, treated, supported or maintained, me already
For a long time would not be in alive. Now I move by means of invalid's
Carriages. Unfortunately, despite of all our diligence and efforts of a leg or foot remain without
Movements. My problem consists that now I do not feel
Any vital energy, she as though gradually follows from me. Firstly
My aspiration, belief, desire to be restored were very great, and now + to Me
It became terrible for the future. One doubts what that. I do not understand, that
Occurs or Happens. I would not like anything. Simply one white ceiling. Often visit or attend
Ideas on suicide. Has ceased to look at itself in a mirror. There are hysterics.
Tears. As with it or this to struggle and what to do or make further - I do not know. How to adjust or set up itself on
Positive ideas on charging or charge. I was lost in this life. At me such sensation,
That I kochus downwards, that float absolutely in other direction.
In our family not all is smooth. At us very rasping and malicious father, he it is constant
Shouts, swears, with the sister, with the brother with mum, eternally clings to
All. The daddy at all does not help or assist mum, her to have everything, all to do or make most.
Mum does not work from the moment of a trauma. All its or her girlfriends samolikvidirovalis. No
Any encouragement neither from native, nor from the husband, in which
She so requires.
To me very hardly to look at it or her. From the moment of a trauma its or her health very much
Has reeled. She should do or make all most: to sit down me on a carriage, to lay down on
The bed to help or assist to overturn +
Last time it or she is hurted very much with legs or foots. Recently in it or her have found out a hernia (inguinal)
I very much experience for it or her, I worry for its or her health. It is very terrible to me to think about
Volume that will be further with her. Mum often has nervous failures. When she
Starts to cry, and to speak, as she is tired from all it or this at me heart simply
On pieces it is broken off or is lacerated. I so want, that first of all was happy and
She is free. Each new day is similar on previous. Very much often I see it or her
zaplakannye, tired, empty eyes though she carefully tries to hide them that
To not upset us. In them is not present, as before any vital force, energy,
Sparks. She began to drink, certainly, not often, but + " You in all are guilty! ": such
I very much often hear a phrase from the brother and the sister. So to live in such situation
To become all it is more complex or difficult, but to live I very much I want, I wish to rise on legs or foots, to marry,
narozhat children, and the most important I want that my mummy was free and
It is happy. I know and I understand that all this iz-for me, but as well as than to help or assist her I not
I know. Dear, the psychologist, what to me to do or make and how itself messages? Prompt
Please! Often I feel low in all body, to force itself to be engaged
To become all it is more difficult. Even when I find in myself forces and I start to do or make
Charging or Charge, I have such sensation, that I do or make not that and not so. To me
Your psychological help is very necessary!!! Prompt, PLEASE, as to me
To get rid of this laziness oppressing me and passivity. How to find confidence in
The forces and to believe in the convalescence! How to learn to not pay attention on
The negative surrounding me to get rid of bad ideas and to be adjusted or be set up only on
Restoration?
I shall look forward to hearing from you or to your reply very much.
Help or Assist me, please!
In advance to you it is very grateful!
Yours faithfully Zhemchugova Maria.
My electron address: milery@mail. ru