The guy
25.07.2004, 03:16
I know - the ideal variant to descend or go to the psychologist. But completely to shift the problems on others - it is not so interesting. As kak-in any way, but gradually it manages to something to reach or achieve in a life most. But it would be desirable vsyo-taki to accelerate process a little. I since the childhood was not too contact, friends always chose me. In sadik and in 1 j the class of school went with tears - an abruption from strict (often named its or her malicious), but liked mummy. In 10 m a class friendly dialogue with the schoolmate has ended with humiliations from its or her party or side, for certain that I fooled it or her. I allowed her to consider or count myself as its or her guy after she has told or said that likes me. Saw off after employment or occupations, did or made at it or her lessons. She would like any close relations, for certain and sex - but she - as the girl - for me was not so nice, only as the friend - the interlocutor (a record by phone - 4 hours). This our dialogue was interesting to me to what will result or bring, houses all peerly to sit boringly.. . After couple of weeks of such dialogue, she iz-for disappointments in me has derided me and for the company one more little girl. On it or this warm close confidential attitudes or relations have ended, have remained poverhnostnye-friendly. Like the usual history - with whom happens. But there was any insult. Attitudes or relations with mother, and not after quarrel and when we only began nashche acquaintance also have strongly deteriorated. Also there was the second poblema is a unwillingness and even impossibility to act publicly iz-for sensations of any rigidity in soul or douche. Iz-for it or this problems in study (in HIGH SCHOOL), dialogue have amplified. After several years of unsuccessful attempts to be typed or collected boldness to defend the diploma, has thrown this business, and has got a job. The truth ridiculously it passed or took place - when called on mobile - was afraid to lift a tube, and pending interviews wished to escape, but that without special elekronnoj a card to not leave has helped or assisted. Now pospenno I consult with pavor of public - job forces. Until recently did not represent itself near to the beloved - in fact even with old friends - and that is not present desire to communicate - if earlier simply sometimes hesitated, now simply I am afraid of the not explainable arrogance to people. However, recently has met the girl, I do not understand as, but kissed, in second time even it was pleasant. But again I feel from its or her party or side much greater desire to communicate, than at me, prada now like and she nice. Now here a problem - I wish to be with her more close and simultaneously I feel hatred which has appeared after several hours of conversations on all during an occurring after 1 j long separation (far lives). I in general the optimist, but on a regular basis feel, that I understand nothing in this life...