Liane
08.07.2004, 22:04
Hello!
To me simply to address any more to itself. At us city very small, good experts are not present.
In a new year's eve I was beaten for the first time by the husband. All has begun with usual quarrel in the machine or car. As always happens at us thus, conversation has come about divorce, sharing of children has begun. He before constantly spoke me, that does not like me, lives with me only for the sake of children, that he is absolutely not capable to like someone, even he simply tries to like children, etc. I very much was upset, but thought, what is it only the word and does not exist such people who are not capable to like someone. I did not wish to recognize it. He has beaten me, was threatened to kill, I have tested, apparently, a shock, me as if or as have paralysed or paralyze, legs or foots have stiffened, potjazheleli arms or hand, all body has strained, as though before a cramp and I could not operate or control any time the body, could not set even an arm or a hand. The husband has carried me in militia, has demanded, that I have written the application or statement on it or him, what is it the best occasion for divorce, he will meet new year there. I have told or said, that I shall not write, it is not necessary for me. Then he spoke, that in all I am guilty, have finished it or him before the words. Though when me as if or as has paralysed or paralyzed, he, apparently, for any time was frightened, has told or said: " Excuse, I did not want it or this, do not think of it or this, calm down, do not cry ", has taken mine nothing feeling arms or hand in the arms or hand, even on a cheek tried to kiss, if only I have calmed down. " I also have told or said in fact spoke you that is not capable to like anybody... Well that you have achieved with the love? " We live the fifth year. At us two children - girls 3 and 1, 5 years. I do not know as further to live. He in the extremity or end has brought me home and has told or said that at it or him arms or hand that I steered clear of it or him, it only the beginning, eventually till now are scratched either he will kill me or I shall kill it or him. He usually holds the word. So now I understand, what is it is not simple words. He was absolutely sober, spoke that is quiet, and itself was similar to the person who has lost mind. Has left me at the house and has left, having told or said that wishes to bring down somebody by the machine or car. To me hardly to recollect all this. Mind or wit I understand, that as though I liked it or him, we cannot remain together, he during that moment was absolutely sober and ruthless. Nothing is necessary to me from it or him if only at me there were children. And he wishes to leave them to itself(himself). Threatens, that at any cost will make it if I will want also shall not see the children. Speaks, that I cannot contain them, on me still my mum the invalid of the first group. But I think, that I shall consult. Basically, I can get a job, (by a trade I the journalist) to employ the nurse, the nurse. I believe, that my salary plus of the alimony on children quite will suffice us. The husband speaks that he can bribe everything, prove my material incompetence and to select children. I do not know as usually happens in court.
Yesterday he has come indifferently. Children very much were delighted to him. He has remained even to spend the night. When I began to lay to myself on a floor, he has told or said, that can leave. I have told or said " leave, when children will fall asleep. That that you communicate with children well, but it does not mean that between us there can be something the general or common except for them ". But he ignores that that has occured or happened, behaves so as if or as nothing happens, does not start talking on this subject unless has asked " well your mum has advised? " To him its or her opinion, than mine or as though I do not have head on brachiums is as though more important. Today he has left on job, having left on a table of money. I have taken them as I now practically do not have money. Also today I have passed or have taken place is judicial - medical examination, have simply fixed or recorded the fact of beating without the application or statement in militia, can it is useful in court if he will insist that to him have left children.
I do not know that to me to do or make further?
It seems to me, that he is not going to at all to leave us alone, to divorce or - even to be sorry. Please, help or assist.
To me simply to address any more to itself. At us city very small, good experts are not present.
In a new year's eve I was beaten for the first time by the husband. All has begun with usual quarrel in the machine or car. As always happens at us thus, conversation has come about divorce, sharing of children has begun. He before constantly spoke me, that does not like me, lives with me only for the sake of children, that he is absolutely not capable to like someone, even he simply tries to like children, etc. I very much was upset, but thought, what is it only the word and does not exist such people who are not capable to like someone. I did not wish to recognize it. He has beaten me, was threatened to kill, I have tested, apparently, a shock, me as if or as have paralysed or paralyze, legs or foots have stiffened, potjazheleli arms or hand, all body has strained, as though before a cramp and I could not operate or control any time the body, could not set even an arm or a hand. The husband has carried me in militia, has demanded, that I have written the application or statement on it or him, what is it the best occasion for divorce, he will meet new year there. I have told or said, that I shall not write, it is not necessary for me. Then he spoke, that in all I am guilty, have finished it or him before the words. Though when me as if or as has paralysed or paralyzed, he, apparently, for any time was frightened, has told or said: " Excuse, I did not want it or this, do not think of it or this, calm down, do not cry ", has taken mine nothing feeling arms or hand in the arms or hand, even on a cheek tried to kiss, if only I have calmed down. " I also have told or said in fact spoke you that is not capable to like anybody... Well that you have achieved with the love? " We live the fifth year. At us two children - girls 3 and 1, 5 years. I do not know as further to live. He in the extremity or end has brought me home and has told or said that at it or him arms or hand that I steered clear of it or him, it only the beginning, eventually till now are scratched either he will kill me or I shall kill it or him. He usually holds the word. So now I understand, what is it is not simple words. He was absolutely sober, spoke that is quiet, and itself was similar to the person who has lost mind. Has left me at the house and has left, having told or said that wishes to bring down somebody by the machine or car. To me hardly to recollect all this. Mind or wit I understand, that as though I liked it or him, we cannot remain together, he during that moment was absolutely sober and ruthless. Nothing is necessary to me from it or him if only at me there were children. And he wishes to leave them to itself(himself). Threatens, that at any cost will make it if I will want also shall not see the children. Speaks, that I cannot contain them, on me still my mum the invalid of the first group. But I think, that I shall consult. Basically, I can get a job, (by a trade I the journalist) to employ the nurse, the nurse. I believe, that my salary plus of the alimony on children quite will suffice us. The husband speaks that he can bribe everything, prove my material incompetence and to select children. I do not know as usually happens in court.
Yesterday he has come indifferently. Children very much were delighted to him. He has remained even to spend the night. When I began to lay to myself on a floor, he has told or said, that can leave. I have told or said " leave, when children will fall asleep. That that you communicate with children well, but it does not mean that between us there can be something the general or common except for them ". But he ignores that that has occured or happened, behaves so as if or as nothing happens, does not start talking on this subject unless has asked " well your mum has advised? " To him its or her opinion, than mine or as though I do not have head on brachiums is as though more important. Today he has left on job, having left on a table of money. I have taken them as I now practically do not have money. Also today I have passed or have taken place is judicial - medical examination, have simply fixed or recorded the fact of beating without the application or statement in militia, can it is useful in court if he will insist that to him have left children.
I do not know that to me to do or make further?
It seems to me, that he is not going to at all to leave us alone, to divorce or - even to be sorry. Please, help or assist.