Vick
01.07.2004, 21:32
The doctor, tell or say please, whether there can be a depression hereditary. I read at a forum many various cases of depressions. Similar, that I all conscious life suffer depressions (since the childhood). In the childhood I was excruciated with any obtrusivenesses as if or as someone me compelled or forced to do or make something bad (I was excruciated and could not calm down yet I shall not make it), it was awfully a shame to me with it. I kak-remember that strongly ill - to mine with an angina (to me was years 6) and the strange dream that I the man of years 40 50 has dreamed me and I am am carried on arms or hand by other men to the big fire and throw in it or him and more in the same night in a dream I has heard any is intolerable an awful hissing female voice after that a dream me gde-that year at the slightest rustle pursued this hissing voice (that is it was simply a voice, without words, but he directed at me panic horror and I tried to leave more quickly on jlitsu. It occured or happened only at home). Then after a fright and the big load (I have gone in obshcheobr-ju and musical school and I was ill with a neurosis (published any sounds some kinds), I drank tablets and gde-that in a year it has stopped. I was the quick-tempered child, I fighted with children, basically with boys (they deduced or removed me from themselves, speaking something insulting, I suffered or bore and if they prodolzhali-passed to fists).
At teenage age I was excruciated from depressions, very much often thought of a suicide. Two my school loves were meek or unrequited (in 12 and 15 years). With last school love I was excruciated 3 years, I became unsociable and not talkative (certainly I had girlfriends, I hohmila, tried to not be idealistic). In institute I have fallen in love with the guy, but I vljublennast has remained meek or unrequited. (did not carry as speak in love..) Then I met young men who used me and excruciated. Once my brother with the father even have thought that I am pricked (have come home and the brother speaks with any rage: show veins!! It certainly was a shock. Delirium any): I met the young man, and have then found out, that he is married and at it or him the child, I very much experienced and was excruciated, late came home, refused a supper (the meal in a throat simply did not climb), here they and have thought, that I use narcotics. And I had a depression. I of requisitions of have left this guy and have soon met another, I dreamed of rest to me it was necessary to be necessary and liked, but I have appeared for it or him simply mistress (which at it or him was during that moment a little). I would not like to live.
I am am excruciated often with feeling of any sinfulness, a mud from all these memoirs which pursue me. Now it would seem 2 my main dreams have come true (simply miracle any, I constantly thank the God for it): I have married the person whom madly I like also which as likes me, and I wait for the child. But when he something is dissatisfied (if I with something not so has made), I start to cry, think, that I the bad wife, not worthy my husband, that is better I would die. Now I am compelled or forced to be the housewife and on me have pulled hard any appatija-it would be desirable to do or make nothing, I feel a useless thing, I cannot be engaged in my liked business because I do not know tongue of the country in which I live (only English on which I can communicate only with foreigners and with the husband), certainly I learn or teach tongue. I convince myself, that I still young and shall achieve all sooner or later. But I can do or make nothing with the status, I can not consult. Please, advise me what to do or make.
At teenage age I was excruciated from depressions, very much often thought of a suicide. Two my school loves were meek or unrequited (in 12 and 15 years). With last school love I was excruciated 3 years, I became unsociable and not talkative (certainly I had girlfriends, I hohmila, tried to not be idealistic). In institute I have fallen in love with the guy, but I vljublennast has remained meek or unrequited. (did not carry as speak in love..) Then I met young men who used me and excruciated. Once my brother with the father even have thought that I am pricked (have come home and the brother speaks with any rage: show veins!! It certainly was a shock. Delirium any): I met the young man, and have then found out, that he is married and at it or him the child, I very much experienced and was excruciated, late came home, refused a supper (the meal in a throat simply did not climb), here they and have thought, that I use narcotics. And I had a depression. I of requisitions of have left this guy and have soon met another, I dreamed of rest to me it was necessary to be necessary and liked, but I have appeared for it or him simply mistress (which at it or him was during that moment a little). I would not like to live.
I am am excruciated often with feeling of any sinfulness, a mud from all these memoirs which pursue me. Now it would seem 2 my main dreams have come true (simply miracle any, I constantly thank the God for it): I have married the person whom madly I like also which as likes me, and I wait for the child. But when he something is dissatisfied (if I with something not so has made), I start to cry, think, that I the bad wife, not worthy my husband, that is better I would die. Now I am compelled or forced to be the housewife and on me have pulled hard any appatija-it would be desirable to do or make nothing, I feel a useless thing, I cannot be engaged in my liked business because I do not know tongue of the country in which I live (only English on which I can communicate only with foreigners and with the husband), certainly I learn or teach tongue. I convince myself, that I still young and shall achieve all sooner or later. But I can do or make nothing with the status, I can not consult. Please, advise me what to do or make.