Irina
30.05.2004, 11:49
The dear doctor, tell or say how to name this status. To me 24, from them all some or a little bit tens days I lived as the normal person - that is, I did not experience, as I look or appear, that I should make urgent, etc. about 8 Years ago, before entering in institute I have started to go on courses - and in the underground I constantly reddened - it seemed to me, that all at me look. The matter is that I since the childhood am very closed (till 6 years me more daddy brought up - he very closed person in itself), constantly I hesitate, the feeling of awkwardness is familiar to me not on naslyshke, iz-for it or this at me attitudes or relations with many people therefore as I once again am afraid to ask, demand the, etc. spoil And in occasion of to defend itself is at all about me. Kakoe-any time I went to the psychologist (except for my psychologist nobody knew about it or this), dialogue with it or him it has helped or assisted me. I read, that till 8 years at the child character is formed - and so I remember the core as it seems to me in my childhood: Arrival rovesnikov-brothers, sisters to us in gosti-all of us we play toys, and my daddy speaks, that we (with the sister, younger) shall clean or remove all. And so very much often - we should wash up utensils, etc. Though any praise. I since the childhood very independent - a vacation take or spend houses, should take away the sister from is put. A garden, school, etc. At school I responded, for delivery of writing-books was the head of a class the head in institute and t. d, and thus at everything, I awfully complexed, hesitated, tried to merge with a wall. (why that was suddenly recollected - I now work in decent firm (with moim-that "diagnosis") and when me have raised or increased my daddy have told or said - " And what, could not take from other sectionings? Also it was very much pleased, that now at us will be more money. - but it so, deviation from the text.) But everything, that I do or make, I cannot finish, or I lead up or I take, and it seems to me, that it was possible to make all better. To all other, I am very subject to change of moods. (it can vegetatika - at me vegeto-a vascular dystonia). Appearance at me attractive and consequently to meet someone for me not a problem, and here attitudes or relations with associates to me to save very hardly. Excuse for confusion, but I write and it seems, that I do or make all this in vain. To me to like to go in the evening in the winter: anybody will not see you, does not look, etc. And now the summer, and for me a continuous flour or torment again begins. Do not find or consider for delirium, but it is all a reality.