Sad_eyes
28.05.2004, 02:28
Dear D.Gorbatov! Has read through your answer Malvine in occasion of "carry" and poshu to help or assist me to understand one chronic problem...
Several years ago, when to me was 15, after suicidal attempt I was treated at the psychotherapist with whom we have quickly enough become friends iz-for the general or common interests: music, books, outlook, etc. Love as those was not, though as it seemed to me, my doctor even wanted, that she has appeared - probably, it could distract me from ideas on the person, iz-for which I tried to commit suicide.
We began to communicate enough often, later some months he have forbidden to me to name themselves its or his patient, preferring a capacious word "friend". It were very confidential attitudes or relations which have for a short while interrupted when I have moved to other city, but then we again began to see even raz-two in a month, to listen to a blues, to share everything, that occurs or happens in a life...
My former doctor who has become or begun despite of a difference in 13 years by the friend, never aspired to become me someone or someone else, and I did not think of it or this. And that neozhidanee was for me when after almost 4 years of our friendship he has wanted to become my lover, having learned or having found out, that I was going to to marry. I was in shkoe though kissed:-))) But to continue attitude or relation in this key did not become...
Has passed or Has taken place two more years, we communicate as friends though inside I had "emptiness" on a place of concept "friend". It was very complex or difficult to me to understand and accept, what for this (married) person so has unexpectedly turned our attitudes or relations in other party or side if up to that all was remarkable.
For me he remained the friend and the former doctor, but it is complex or difficult to me to understand: whether there was such attitude or relation to me at once? Whether he Hid it or him and if yes, what for? And whether there is a concept of "carry" concerning the doctor to the patient?
Has chaotically written, forgive or excuse...
Several years ago, when to me was 15, after suicidal attempt I was treated at the psychotherapist with whom we have quickly enough become friends iz-for the general or common interests: music, books, outlook, etc. Love as those was not, though as it seemed to me, my doctor even wanted, that she has appeared - probably, it could distract me from ideas on the person, iz-for which I tried to commit suicide.
We began to communicate enough often, later some months he have forbidden to me to name themselves its or his patient, preferring a capacious word "friend". It were very confidential attitudes or relations which have for a short while interrupted when I have moved to other city, but then we again began to see even raz-two in a month, to listen to a blues, to share everything, that occurs or happens in a life...
My former doctor who has become or begun despite of a difference in 13 years by the friend, never aspired to become me someone or someone else, and I did not think of it or this. And that neozhidanee was for me when after almost 4 years of our friendship he has wanted to become my lover, having learned or having found out, that I was going to to marry. I was in shkoe though kissed:-))) But to continue attitude or relation in this key did not become...
Has passed or Has taken place two more years, we communicate as friends though inside I had "emptiness" on a place of concept "friend". It was very complex or difficult to me to understand and accept, what for this (married) person so has unexpectedly turned our attitudes or relations in other party or side if up to that all was remarkable.
For me he remained the friend and the former doctor, but it is complex or difficult to me to understand: whether there was such attitude or relation to me at once? Whether he Hid it or him and if yes, what for? And whether there is a concept of "carry" concerning the doctor to the patient?
Has chaotically written, forgive or excuse...